goodbye, Gaby Girl......

i came home tonight to a sick baby. i took her to the vet after Donsie said i should - it might be tick fever. i took her. the vet told me that she has the most wonderful temprament. she told me she is beautiful. she also told me that she had a tumor that had ruptured inside and that she was bleeding to death internally. last night this time she was fine. she was nudging me for some attention. we went for a walk. this morning she was fine. now she is dead. she was almost 12 years old. she had a wonderful life. she was the most fantastic dog. my heart is so sore. i keep thinking that all my dogs are old. the other two will also die soon. i don't have children. i have been praying for a miracle child. i know i cannot have a small child with the old dogs. although my heart is breaking and i cried so hard that i thought the neighbours would come complain, i cannot help but wonder if this is not all part of God's plan. i know Gaby did not suffer. she smiled and kissed me when i said goodbye. she had never done that before. she always turned her face from mine when i hugged her. it is as if she knew. and all the time she did not make a sound................if God blesses me with a girl, she will be called Gaby. goodbye, Gaby girl. your absence will leave a huge, gaping hole. xxxxxxx