friends....

i asked Desiree for some photographs - it is very hard when you scrap a lot like i do, and you have no subjects - and you can really only scrap your husband, the dogs and the garden so many times! we do have chickens now, but i need to first get a few good shots of the little buggers before i can scrap them! so Desiree was kind enough to put a disc together of her children and just some THINGS - and i am so glad! these photos are of her oldest daughter, Tarien and her friend. Tarien is the dark haired one. she is a classic beauty. she will have swooning gents all over her as soon as she enters the real world, and that is not necessarily a good thing.........but luckily she is a very solid young lady who knows the right way. her faith in Christ is grounded and she knows that she is a Temple. when i did this layout i remembered my friendships i had in high school..........we would swear that we would stay friends FOREVER, but as the years moved on, new friends took the place of old ones and we all went our seperate ways. i still have one friend that i know i can always count on - even though we have not spoken to each other for a few months. i sometimes wonder if people don't put too much value on FRIENDS, and less on their relationship with Christ? i used to be like that when i was young. my friends were everything. now i am 37 years old and i have only been friends with Christ in all seriousness for just over 15 months. although i THOUGHT i knew Him, i could not call Him Friend, until recently. and it is the most important relationship in my life at this stage. i used to live for my husband, my work, my friends - everything except Him. sometimes i feel so bad that i was so selfish, i just want to cry. esepcially when i think of all the horrid things i have done in my life - how absolutely immoral i was and the worldly life i lead. and i cry to the Heavens,thanking Him for saving me! it is not easy living in this world when you know that you don't belong here. i have to live IN the world, but not be OF the world. sometimes it is so hard that i cry because i feel i am at tether's end. i look at these young girls - all they want to be is grown up - i wish they knew how hard it is to be grown up. how hard it is to live what you believe and not get sidetracked by LIFE and all that goes on in it. i seldom get sad. but tonight i am having a moment. i know that i have to be obedient to God, and that is sometimes so hard. i know that He is faithful and that He will never forsake me. i know that i should not complain - Jesus was totally forsaken at the cross. i will do better. my sins have been forgiven and Christ has risen! PRAISE GOD!! have a super week everyone - CREATE!!!